I'm not here to sell you anything. I want to ask if you're ok?
Christmas can be the hardest time. Our loneliness, guilt, regret, debt, fear, inadequacy, anger, addiction, anything, can be thrown into sharp relief.
I want to tell you that it's normal for lots of us to be down, even to be suicidal. It is common. You are not weak. This is an illness. Get it sorted.
I used to feel suicidal. It was awful. Horrific. I may not understand it, but I do recognise your pain. You can and will recover. I did.
Please talk to someone, anyone. Nobody has ever felt worse off for it.
Here's some great numbers, or private live chats to help:
Campaign Against Living Miserably Web Chat or Call
Samaritans Call or Email
Find a UK Therapist - (This was my first step to talking)
I never thought life would be good again, but it is. Keep going, open your mouth and say your pain. Then, one day, you won't believe how far you've come.